Time for some gratitude, folks. Joshua. Justin (aka @justinlibrarian, the most rad teen librarian in the history of ever), the Portland Public Library, and the Portland PD for putting on awesome programs like tonight’s Teen Madness after hours party. Super incredible friends. A book I can’t put down. Weekends. Hope you are all enjoying your Friday night; off to see...
It is amazing to me how “little things” can mean so much – then I wonder, how little are they, really? Who gets to decide? If it means a lot to me, based on my experiences and expectations, then it’s big, right? Tonight, I had plans to meet a friend for coffee. K had a really busy day at work...
Sometimes, what I deal with post-therapy is a lot more triggering than what I experience in the session itself. During tonight’s session, I discussed some shit I haven’t thought about in any detail in a long time, felt defensive about things I’ve not been confronted on lately, and handled it all with a fairly low level of emotional response. This...
Have I mentioned that I’m a masochist of sorts? (that seems incongruous after reading the post’s title, I know. I’ll get there.) Pain can be cathartic in so many ways. It can be a reminder. A tribute. A warning. I was on the phone with K just now, and the last thing we talked about before saying goodnight was gratitude....
…I just realized that Joshua switched keyboards on me while he was watching the Super Bowl and making/uploading videos. Brat. Anyway, I hope you’ve all had a delightful weekend full of all things happy—- hang on, Iliena —- Cat hanging a foot off the ground by her claws, which were stuck in my scarf, which was hanging on the back...
Know how when you’re shopping for a car, and you find one you like but haven’t made up your mind yet – all of a sudden, every third car you see on the road is the make and model that’s on your mind? Maybe that’s what this is. Maybe the fact that gender ID has been in my head these...
I feel like today has just been so full of stuff. There are about 72 things I want to post, but I am going to go to bed because it has been an emotionally exhausting day and sometimes you just have to say fuck it and crawl into bed and hug your special pillow tight and put all things off...
Oh hey, by the way – I’m a Femme. This is likely obvious due to the name of my domain. However, that doesn’t mean much to some folks. And that’s okay! Know what I love? Educating people who love to learn. Since most of the people who read this are queer or queer-because-they-love-us-queers, you probably have an idea of what Femme...
You know me, I am Joshua, aka Chaos/GtA so lets just get on with it. Hey everybody its Chaos/GtA/Joshua I mainly will use Chaos in my introductions -_- So first, how I got into making videos. I got inspired to make walkthrough videos by Chuggaaconroy; he is funny/awesome. Also my inspiration to make movies in games is my...